And yes, the first part of the session is conversation.....but that in itself is really important.......for us to spend quality time together it is important to get to know a little about each another.

So come prepared to talk and to open up. The more you open up yourself to me, the more you will find that we will connect.

One reason why many come to a Tantra session is to experience something different. In order to do this though one must be open to change. However, some clients have not shown up with a completely open mind. Unless one can let go of expectations then you are limiting yourself and me at the same time. 

Allow me to give to you and stay present so that you can receive and experience fully. By surrendering in this manner I will be able to give more. But, if you are wanting me to do something else other than what I'm doing in my time with you then your mind is wandering,  resulting in you not being fully present and not receiving as fully as you could. This will also affect my ability to give to you. And so you'll go away somewhat disappointed.

"Do not seek fame. Do not make plans. Do not be absorbed by activities. Do not think that you know. Be aware of all that is and dwell in the infinite. Wander where there is no path. Be all that heaven gave you, but act as though you have received nothing. Be empty, that is all."  CHUANG TZU

I can honestly say though that I have changed greatly these last few month and my work also. And as I continue onwards, the path I am on becomes more clear.

Firstly however I have to let you know that I have new pictures, some of which are posted now.

So, on my latest trip to San Francisco I had 3 cancellations after my arrival. Not that I don't get cancellations in other cities, I do. But I guess that was the last straw. Cancellations are really hard to make up since I rely on a certain number of appts to break even and when I get late cancellations it is very hard to fill in those time slots and I am often time left twiddling my thumbs! Anyway, to avoid this in the future I am asking for a deposit to hold your appt time. The deposit is non-refundable but I will try and reschedule you if my schedule allows. I also hope that you understand that this does help offset some of my costs to visit your city.

And sorry SF.....I ended cutting my trip short and therefore it doesn't look like I'll be returning anytime soon. Such a shame as it's a really awesome place.

Yeah, December and January went by really fast with all the shopping and usual festive preparations plus I also visited NYC in Dec and Boston in Jan.  And then Feb arrived before I knew it.

But first things first I wish all that know me, past, present and future, an awesome year and hope that you are blessed with much abundance and happiness. Also if you haven't contacted me in a year I would love to hear from you and how you're doing and if things are working for you and if not perhaps it's time you had another session. And no it doesn't have to be with me....there are many other goddesses out there and it is always good to receive input from other sources.

Anyway, I digress. February....wow. And the reason I say this is because  its now been one year since I quit my full-time day job. So to leave the security of a weekly pay check as well as the benefits from working for a large organization is a big step. However, it's been worth it to say the least and I must say I feel very blessed and thankful to be able to do something I love.  I have much more free time but it's really funny how I don't have as much time as I thought I would......I really wonder how I was able to accomplish all the things I used to do and hold down a job too!

But if I look back over the year it's been quite a year of change and it definitely hasn't been easy. I still have bills to pay like everyone else as well as raise my 5, soon to be 6 year old, as a single parent. But living as a Tantric and embracing the good as well as the bad..... accepting it all without judgement, that makes a huge difference to your quality of life.

Anyway, what did I do last year.....Tons, here are just a few of the highlights.

As you know I went to Hawaii las year to study with Shawn Roop of Tantraquest, then in April to Kripalu to study with Daniel Odier, then in July I did NLP practitioner training. I also went to the Omega Center in October although that training did not work for me....hey not everything is going to suit you. I also learned not to go to Boston in the summer or NYC just before Xmas.....but it was amazing to be in NYC at that time and to see the Xmas tree at the Rockerfeller center and the storefront at Macy's. I went to new places like Calgary, Edmonton, Hawaii, Miami and DC, as well as different parts of cities that I'd been to before, like the North end of Boston and the Financial district in NYC.

So now it's 2007 and as I've already mentioned I was in Boston in Jan after which all my travel been personal.  The first trip was a vacation....which I haven't really had for many years and which I got to take with my partner, or rather he took me. It was only 5 days ....I don't think 5 days have ever gone by so quickly.... but we had a fantastic time together.

The second trip was on the west coast of Mexico and was a week long retreat with Daniel Odier.  The resort was beautiful, natural and unspoiled, the people at the resort and the group I was with were all wonderful and the time spent with Daniel was captivating.  It was an amazing experience and one which I am still processing.

So there you have it...I think I'm about caught up. I'm off to Atlanta tomorrow...first time ever in this city. Plus I'm looking forward to getting back to work and integrating all that I have learned recently.

October....hmm....what a long time ago that seems and as usual it was busy. The first part of the month, TL and I had a mini vacation. We took a weekend workshop at the Omega Center in Rhinebeck, NY. Unfortunately, we didn't enjoy the workshop and so didn't even bother attending it after finding out what it was all about. But at least we could spend more time together relaxing which was really what we both needed.

The latter part of the month I visited Boston. I was  really excited to hook up with a close personal girlfriend,  Goddess Uma. Uma lives in Hawaii so we don't often get to see one another and so it was great to be able to work together  too.

Oh and BTW the North End of Boston where I was staying....what a fantastic location!

Chicago was awesome. I lucked out with a great apartment in a great location. It was also great to be working again after a long summer break.

Wow its October already. September just flew by.

So not much exciting to relate this month, but I have booked a photoshoot in September.

Actually I have been fairly quiet and taking it easy these last few weeks as I've been recovering from surgery. Nothing serious just some elective surgery. I did something that I've been wanting most of my life but always put the thought aside as I didn't think it was something I would ever be able to have. Your probably guessing and your probably guessing right. Yes, I had breast augmentation surgery. Honestly it was a hard decision to make but now that its over it has to be one of the best things I have ever done and probably the first time I have truly done something just for me.

My breasts were fine and after I had kids they got even smaller. (Nobody tells you that and also that breast feeding makes them droop too).  It was only when I got into this line of work I found I was increasingly finding that something was missing....... Up until this time I was never aware of this.  I love my breasts being touched but it wasn't something that happened too regularly because there really wasn't much you could put your hand around. But having them now and seeing them and being able to actually manipulate them allows me to feel so very in tune with myself as a woman.

So anyone who knows someone who has had this procedure knows it takes about a month or so to recover from this and for me its been 3 1/2 weeks so far. No pictures yet so please don't bug me for any. Once everything settles I will post some.

I am able to work now, but as it's school holidays  and I have to be with my son, my amount of available time is limited. I have also just returned from a week in New Brunswick to be with family. Meantime, I am planning my tour dates for the Fall and have trips scheduled for Boston, Chicago and NYC. Let me know by email if you would like me to consider visiting your city.... preferably in the Eastern US. But, remember I can always be sponsored to visit with you.

And my visit to DC was one of those new experiences. I was there 9 days and it gave me the opportunity to do some sightseeing of the capital....but was there ever a lot of walking. Not that I mind that mind you but it would have helped to have packed proper walking shoes. Oh well I'll know for next time. Thankfully I had awesome weather every day except for one so I was able to really enjoy the outside.

So many of you are probably wondering what I am doing that is keeping me busy....Good question I'm wondering that myself since it's not like I am inundated with session work every day. To be honest there isn't much work in Toronto or even Canada for that matter.  But I do plan on working to try  to change that and hope to run couples and women's workshops/retreats and giving informational talks in the near future.  So the planning on those are in the works but meantime when I'm not travelling I'm just really enjoying being home, taking care or myself and a big part of that is being with my 5 year old. Having to work while raising kids you really do miss a lot (and when I'm travelling I really see how much he's grown while I've been away).  I also see the worry, stress  and time that my  day job created as a further distraction from really be able to spend the quality time with him in the past. So yes I am very blessed to have this time  for me and with him.....it really is a different type of "busy".

However, my Boston visit was otherwise very awesome and my trip to the Kripalu Center in Lenox, Mass was much more than I ever expected and was a really great way to spend the weekend.

I got back to to Toronto to celebrate Easter at home, then a trip to Calgary and then on to Edmonton where I met some very amazing couples.

Now I'm home in TO but not for long as next week I will be Washington DC.  I have never visited this city so I'm quite excited to be going somewhere new.